I'm sure we've all heard those motivational speeches on T.V. or in movies, or perhaps in person, telling us if we want something, we should get out and find it. I'm going to tell you all right now, that is entirely impossible most times in this world. Most times, we are usually persuaded to choose something we wouldn't have otherwise desired purely by advertising, suppression, or even forced by legal or unwritten law. So there you have it. I'm pissed off at the world for being a giant fucking hypocrite.

You make me feel so unhappy that I want you to never be happy again. And unhappy is a loose term. I would say you make me feel.. like you threw me into the deep sea and then jumped in next to me just to watch me suffer. And I'm still angry at you for not ever being around. Maybe mostly because you not being around means you are happy somewhere else. And I hate that.

Thank you.

"It is a common delusion that you make things better by talking about them." - Dame Rose Macaulay

phrase of the day: "blood is thicker than water, bitch!"

It has been a great weekend, so far. We got our tree, a nice 6' ish douglas fir. Put some lights on it, some pretty ornaments... I love it, it smells wonderful and makes me a warm and squishy inside. Watched a few episodes of the first season of SNL. Amazing stuff! Seriously, they really did whatever they wanted. Every episode is something else. Went to the Royal Tavern last night, had a grilled cheese with some tomato soup. Hello, yummy. Today I made some delicious chocolate chocolate hazelnut cookies. Yuuuuum.

It's snowing! Nature (goulet), you just made my life. *sigh*

Time for hot chocolate. :D